Always A Foster Child

I GREW UP IN THE SYSTEM IN TEXAS FROM THE AGE OF 7 TO THE AGE OF 17 AND SO DID MY 2 BROTHERS AND 3 SISTERS. NOW WE ARE ALL GROWN UP WITH ALOT OF ANGER AND CONFUSION AND THE UNDYING URGE TO BELONG TO A FAMILY. WE ALL HAVE CHILDREN AND WE ALL HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE WANTING OUR CHILDREN TO NEVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH WHAT WE DID.

I BEING THE OLDEST FOUND OUR MOTHER AND ALSO FOUND MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS, FOR WE WHERE ALL SEPARATED WITH IN THE FIRST YEAR IN CARE. I WAS NEVER ADOPTED, MY SISTERS WHERE NEVER ADOPTED AND MY BROTHERS WHERE ADOPTED BY A MAN AND A WOMEN WHO DID DRUGS AND DRANK AND ALSO FOUGHT WITH EACH OTHER.

I WAS RAPED IN 88" AND GOT PREGNANT AND WAS ALLOWED TO KEEP MY SON UNTIL THEY COULD FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET ME TO GIVE HIM UP FOR ADOPTION. THEY DID IT SLOWLY, AND PAINFULLY. I LOVED HIM SO MUCH AND THEY TOOK HIM.

ALL OF US HAVE BEEN IN TROUBLE WITH THE LAW. SOMEHOW WE ALL CONFRONTED OUR MOTHER ON WHY THIS WAS DONE TO US. WE ALL STRUGGLE EVERYDAY WITH EACH OTHER AND WITH OUR LIVES BECAUSE OF THE FEAR WE ALL SHARE. "THE LOSS,WE DO NOT WANT TO FEEL THAT AGAIN".

I REMEMBER EVERY MOMENT OF THE TIME WE WHERE ALL TAKEN FROM OUR MOTHER BECAUSE IT FELT LIKE FOREVER AND THESE LADIES DIDN'T HEAR OUR TEARS BUT WE HEARD THEIR WORDS OF SECURITY AND OF STABILTY. ALL LIES!!! WE DEALT WITH MORE CRAP BEING IN THE SYSTEM THEN WE EVER DID WITH OUR PARENTS.

MY SISTERS GOT ADOPTED BY A WELL OFF COUPLE WHO LATER SEXUALLY ABUSED THEM. THEN THEY WHERE REMOVED TO BE WITH OUT FAMILY AGAIN TO NEVER BE ADOPTED OR PLACED IN A FOSTER HOME TOGETHER. AS FOR ME I HAD THREE FAMILYS WHO WANTED TO ADOPT JUST ME BUT NOT MY FAMILY, AND ALSO THEY WHERE TURNED DOWN BY THE COURTS BECAUSE THEY WHERE NOT HISPANIC BUT WHITE, AND THAT ENDED MY ADOPTIONS AS WELL.

MY BROTHERS WHERE TOGETHER BUT NOT IN A SAFE PLACE, AND NO ONE HEARD THEM WHEN THEY CRIED FOR HELP SO THEY NEVER GOT REMOVED, AND THEY JUST GREW UP PISSED OFF.

I JUST WANTED TO SHARE THIS WITH Y'ALL TO LET YOU KNOW THAT SOMEONE DOES HEAR YOUR TEARS AND THAT HOPEFULLY THE PRAYERS WILL BE ANSWERED ON TIME BEFORE ANOTHER CHILD GOES THROUGH THIS.

JENNIFER